General thoughts

So I remember what high school was like.  Not a good four years for me. What I don't remember is bragging to my best friends/ sisters about who I slept with. Especially if my best friends were related to that person in some way. I don't remember my adopted brothers bragging to me about with one of my friends they slept with. Back then alot of people were having sex and I know today its alot worse but really let's not kiss and tell. Its nobody else's business who you are sleeping with. When or how you are doing it. If you are going to be stupid about it you better hope that the female involved doesn't get pregnant. That would really be bad. So all I can say is grow up, have some respect for the person you are dating, your sister of all people,  and keep this crap private.
  On another soap box here... I remember there being an unwritten code that all of us girls had.  You don't date your friends exboyfriends and you sure as he'll don't date there brothers or sisters. What happened to that respect for your friends. Does friendship not mean as much these days? I know that every now and then this code would get broken and relationships would come up with an ex or even a sibling and 9 times out of 10 the "friends" involved would end up losing the relationship that they had because it. Is it really worth losing the closeness of your best friend over. Are you willing to throw that friendship away because you need and want to get laid and fell like you are "loved"? If it is I feel really sad for that person. I mean really if you feel that low then there is something else going on that you need to look at and fix before you can truly love any body. If you don't love yourself you can not truly love anybody else.
  Ok im off my soap box's. Thank you to all my girlfriends for being apart of my life. The few of you that have stood by me through everything are a true blessing from God. The new ones that have come along are also a blessing from God. I love ya ladies and thank you for your friendship!

Heart Brake and healing

Have spent many years looking back on my life thinking what if.... being able to have one of things in my past come up and having to relive everything and having all those feelings and emotions to go through again.... I thought it would be hard but after tears shed and hearts broken I feel so much better. Being able to let it go and close that chapter in my life has helped. When one door closes another one opens up. Leaves room for new beginnings and relationships to be built on a strong lasting foundation. Learned a lot about myself and how I react to situations. Where my feelings really lay and how immature and naive I have been in the past. Time to make more changes and continue to clear my life out of the unwanted pain and drama. Those of you that continue to stand by me through the ups and downs of my life I love you all and thank you for your support.

Time

I love being able to sit down and spend time with my fantastic daughter. She is such an amazing person and reminds me everyday how special she is and what a blessing god has given me to have her in my life. She brings a smile to my face and warms my heart. I love her so much and am so thankful for her! I love you Kelsey!

Trying something new

I have decided to try new things in my life. Where they will take me one never knows. I am just going to hold on for the ride and hope that there are good things at the end of it. I have started working on one of the things that I figured I would try out, with the help of Kelsey it is going well. A lot harder then I ever imagined it to be, but it is going to be a lot of fun.
One of the main things that I am going to work on is being positive about the things in my life. Getting rid of the drama, lies and bs that I have allowed in my life for far to long. I have also decided to try and talk to my mom. Not something I have done in a really long time. I know that a lot of people do not think that this is a good idea because of the way that she has treated me in the past as well as the way she runs her life. This is my decision and its something that I feel I need to do. I will keep y'all posted on how it turns out. It may be a waste of my time, but at least I can say I have tried and its on less burden on my shoulders. Finally being able to forgive her for everything that she has done to me has been an amazing feeling. Now we will see where that forgiveness takes me.

Any new journey in life starts with that first step forward :)

Kelsey

I wake up everyday and worry about my daughter, my husband and everything else that is going on in our life's. I believe that every mom does. You always worry about if your kids are going to make the wrong decision or if they are going to get hurt or if you made the right choices in your life to show them the right path. I do this everyday. Not sure how things are going to turn out. I am not perfect and do not pretend to be. Today I realized that no matter what type of mistakes I make in my life kelsey has been taught well enough and been shown love and the healthy way to live life. There are certain people in her life that try to bring her down and that try to make her feel like everything is her fault. I know this is not true and I hope one day she will be able to see it too. Her aunt is an amazing person who is also there for her and has helped teach her the right and wrongs of life. As well as help her through her struggles. Each person can only do so much and kelsey is loved by so many that she always has people there when she needs them. I am so blessed to have her in our lives and to be a special part of all of this. She is such an amazing young lady and I can't wait to see where the journey of life takes her. I love her with everything that I am and I hope one day she will see herself what an amazing, beautiful,intelligent, special loving person she is. She doesn't see it right now because the pain and suffering is blocking it, but one day soon the clouds will lift and she will see what we all see everyday!


I love you kelsey sue aka squirrel bait :)